Happy mother's day to me.

I never doubted I wanted to become a mother, I knew that could potentially be a good mother having my wonderful mom's example to follow. I envisioned celebrating mother's day with a nice breakfast in bed made by my kid(s) and presents like beautiful drawings and homemade gifts. I imagined having mom-daughter dates getting our nails done and having ice cream after. I thought I would have to have the "talk" with my child someday and I imagined approving or disapproving girlfriends and boyfriends. I was excited about all the things that make a mother a mother, at least what I thought those things were at the time, things like recitals, going to watch them play sports or an instrument. I even imagined the not so fun things like slamming doors and rolling eyes.

But destiny had a different idea of the kind of mother I would be. I knew there was a different and difficult road ahead of us since I heard at 34 weeks of pregnancy that something was going on with the baby I was expecting, you can read about it here.
It has been hard to learn to be the kind of mother Sophia needs and deserves, she has taught me to not take things for granted and to appreciate every single thing she does, to celebrate anything and everything from a the fact that she is making a different sound to seeing her going down the slide so independently. I am learning to be patient and respect Sophia's timeline, she will do it when she is ready to do it. I am enjoying hearing everywhere we go that my daughter is the sweetest girl they have seen. Sophia has taught me to focus on the things that she can do instead of the ones she can't. I have learned that I can still do things that other moms do, maybe I have to modify them a little to adjust them to our situation but still enjoy them.

So this year I decided to celebrate me! I love being Sophia's mom because being Sophia's mother has been the most wonderful experience I have ever had. I am a better person because of her and I have to recognize that she is progressing and she is who she is partly because I am doing doing something right in being the mother that I was meant to be. Happy mother's day to me!