This girl!

This girl!

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

I've been a hypocrite

Yes, I have. This is not me beating myself up, far from it, it's me being honest and stating a fact.
 I always say that I love Sophia and that I do everything I can for her well being. Well, that's not entirely true, I mean the second part, I do love Sophia but I am not doing everything I can to take care of her.  
I have struggled with my weight my whole life, and even though I have lost some weight, I am still 33 pounds overweight and for a 5'2" woman that is a significant amount. Because of the extra weight, I am on 2 blood pressure medications, which my doctor had reduced the dosage when I lost some weight a couple of years ago. We had to increase it again this year because I gained a few pounds and my blood pressure is high again.
I am not doing anything to lose the weight, if I am not healthy I can't take care of Sophia the way she needs me to. I'm scare to think about what's going to happen to Sophia when I am not around anymore yet I am not doing anything to make sure that it doesn't happen too soon.
Now, I could say that I have too much on my plate, that I don't have the time, that I am too stressed to focus on losing weight, but then I would be hypocrite again. I actually have everything I need to stay in shape and get healthy: I have a treadmill and workout dvds. I have 2 pair of very expensive sneakers, one for running and one for high intensity workouts. I have all the tools to make healthy meals. I even have the time, really, if I didn't spend so much time on pinterest and facebook.

Today I am going to stop being a hypocrite and I'm going to honestly start to do everything to make sure I can take the best care of my daughter. I am making this a public commitment, I need accountability, I need to make this happen and I need support and encouragement. It's going to be a long road to my goal but Sophia deserves to have her mother around for as long as possible and I want to see this smile for many many years:

15 comments:

  1. You can do this, Natalia! Take it one day at a time and don't make your diet "rules" too hard to follow.

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    1. Thanks Dyanne! I totally get what you are saying about diet rules too hard to follow, I just need to move a little more and eat healthier.

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  2. Kudos to you, and all the support I can give you from half the world away, Natalia! Getting healthy and fit is so important. I'm not overweight, but seriously out of shape. I hate running but took it back up and made a commitment to run a 10k before turing 30 in April. Maybe running is not the best way to start in order to not overwork your joints, but you could get a bike, maybe with a trailer, and go on fun outings with Sophia. So you can have lots of fun while doing something for your health..

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    1. I am doing the treadmill and also walking at the park pushing Sophia's stroller, I would love a bike and a trailer, I think Sophia would loved it too =) Thank you Stephanie!

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  3. I hear you! And I am right with you! Good luck!!

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  4. Stick with it - that smile of hers is definitely worth it! I'm with you - but I have considerably more to use than you do! I know what you mean about the public accountability thing, if it's out loud it kind of counts more, doesn't it. I'll be keeping track, of you and with you, okay?
    Take care
    Lucas
    (Found you through love that Max)

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    1. Let's keep track of each other!! Thanks for the encouragement!

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  5. Yes!!! I have been going through the same thing I got a bad report from my doctor and know that I need to do better to take care of myself. I just wrote a post about the same thing. It's so hard to really do but as moms of special kiddos we have to. I love how you equate it to doing everything you can for your adorable daughter. It's so true!!!

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    1. I'm glad you get me, our kids depend on us and we need to say strong and healthy so we can be there for them.

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  6. Wow! Good for you! As the mother of 17yo daughter with moderate cerebral palsy, I am also WAY overweight. Not as brave as you to admit to "the number" or make a public commitment. But, just so amazed and inspired you! Good luck in your quest!

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